| Love is a long and winding road... |
[Mar. 9th, 2007|05:50 pm] |
Lately, the cliche' love is blind suddenly made a whole lot of sense to me. I realized that the cliche's is not only applicable to physical aspects or behaviors of the people we love, but at times, the consequences of their actions. It's all part of the acceptance process. The only question is, how far will you go? How long will you wait? How deep can you accept this person, in the name of your love for him/her and for all the moments that you have shared?
Well, I was caught unaware that one of the saddest and most challenging times of my life is happening to me, and I guess it's time to give my maturity level at age 25, a try. God always has a purpose for these trials, isn't it? I know He would want me to learn something from this, and I guess after all of these are through, I will be a much, much better person, a stronger one.
I continue to pray for guidance and wisdom in handling this challenge, and I know I will get over this bump in the road..
I just hope and pray that this problem would not stop me from being someone who gives love to others and I pray that this will not break my capacity to love others. I also pray that time and space will allow the wounds between us to heal, and may he be happy most of the time and strong in facing the challenges in his life.
I still believe in loving you. Nothing will ever change... |
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| Budgeting your money wisely |
[Jan. 4th, 2007|08:37 am] |
BUDGETING YOUR MONEY WISELY
Everyday may be the same to you, but for your money, it's not. Aside from your vunerability to inflation, rising taxes, etc., you also have other things to worry about like that new cell phone you just have to have, or the new shoes that you just have to buy. Everyday is a whole new cycle of temptations to break your budget, abd considering that you might be saving up for your son's tuition or for an important investment, you're not the only one who's going to get hurt by reckless spending. so here's how to keep everybody happy.
A miscellaneous budget
Your budget may contain all the essentials such as food, water bill, electricity, tuition, clothing, etc. But itr wouldn't hurt to include a miscellaneous category in your chart. This allows you to have some cash for things that you want but don't need. however, make sure that you still have to spend wisely. Restrict yourself by spending only the money in your miscellaneous budget. and when you come across something you might want to buy like a pricey cup of coffee, stop and think if it's worth spending that much (besides, you can make your own own coffee without spending more than 50 bucks). Buying that expensive coffee might mean you have to sacrifice the pair of gorgeous shoes you've been eyeing.
Save the extra money
Let's say that your actual budget for the electricity bill is P 5000 bucks, but lately you've been doing some energy saving and your bill goes down to P 3700. This leaves you an extra P 1300 bucks. Now, don't take this extra cash as an opportunity to go indulge in a spa. Even if it hurts, put the extra cash on hold in case your electricity bill goes up or you can deposit it in your savings account.
Sticking to your budget
Maintaining a budget is the hardest part. If you find yourself unable to control your miscellaneous spending, try to limit your trips to the mall. Make it a point to visit the grocery only once a month. Also, even when you have a fixed budget, don't stop keeping track of your expenses. If you find your bills getting higher than the alloted amount, reformat your budget.
An expert's suggestion: break down your goals
Terry Riggs, editor of the Budget Stretcher Newslatter, wrote in his article, "How to Stick to your Budget", that the key to maintaining a budget is by focusing on your goals. Riggs wrote that one of the easiest ways to stick to your budget is to break down your larger goals into smaller goals which you can fulfill in a day. Instead of allowing a budget of P 3,100 a month for transportation, allot P100 per day. This will let you feel accomplished each day and help keep track of your expenses. |
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| Stronger, Wiser, Better |
[Jan. 4th, 2007|08:36 am] |
Well, I guess people should strive to be able to tell themselves these three adjectives of comparative degrees as each year sheds off. Whether we like it or not, we have no choice but to move forward, right? So might as well take the scenic road and be the best that we can be.
For the year 2006, the best lesson I have learned is perhaps to learn how live more in the present and to reflect on what will really make me happy not just today, but would make my happiness sustainable enough for the long run. I guess, this was the year when I got a dose of my investment expeditions. I think this was the year that I have become more conscious about money, my life and my retirement and best of all, preach what I have learned to people around. I realized that the subject on money is one of the most important subjects that should be tackled yet not really a lot of people are interested or even dare to talk about it. Well, it is understandable since we are raised with values that say "money is the root of all evil" and that "money will not give us true happiness".
Before, I would like to think that my views are just different among the majority. So I just went with the flow and tried inculcate the thought that money is not really necessary to make us happy, but later on, I felt uncomfortable. I felt that there was something that was not right. I felt that there was something missing in me, even though I had a great career, a couple of true friends, a great true love (hmph, Boy Abunda's right, it's unfair to know that until now, there is still no exact English word that would clearly address a partner of the same sex who is extremely dear to you. Partner? Lover? Boyfriend? I think it's not really enough. I just wish one day,I'd wake up and it will be the century of the gays and lesbians), I felt that there was still something that's, not really missing, but it's just that I felt that I was not at my best. I felt that I was a jack-of-all-trades guy, but was a master of none. I felt that I needed to specialize on something that I really like, something that does not just interests me, but something that will allow me to touch a lot of people's lives in my own special way and perhaps at the least do my share in making this world a better place to live in.
Well, I can say that this year has been the most informative year for me. After some time, I just found out that I could not live a day without reading the broadsheets, read a lot of books this year, mostly about money, investment and materials about legal matters. I think these are the subject areas that stimulated me the most this year, and I think it will continue until the day I die. Well there is just one thing that I realized, and no matter what news, story or article that you read, it always has something to do with objects that have monetary value. You hear people saying that "In a relationship, when poverty comes in, love flies a way". We were always taught that love is enough to make a relationship last, and that love for money is bad, but sometimes, when you get to step back and analyze and tune-up our frameworks of truth once in a while, you'll realize that sometimes, we have become biased in believing in something just because it has been passed from generation to generation. Well, I am not trying to bag down a wall of tradition here, but I just think it's high time that we start validating our ideals and do something that really makes sense, something that will improve the quality of our lives.
Sometimes, we don't realize that by just balancing our own budgets, indeed makes a lot of difference in our society and in our lives. Being financially free is one big factor in giving satisfaction and happiness in our lives. I know we are still young, and we grow with the saying "Aanhin pa ang damo pag wala na ang kabayo?", but what if the kabayo stays until 70 years old and there is no damo to feed on? :D
The concept, subject of money is still something that we should learn especially in the years that we are still earning money. I am pretty sure that all of us know the concept of saving and budgeting but it really takes proper determination and discipline to follow such procedures in our lives, and what is the consequence, we live from paycheck to paycheck, and we always tell ourselves that we can't afford to lose our jobs because we need the money to pay this and that. We can afford to say this now because we are still young and we still have the energy to do so, but what if we are talking about reaching the age of 60 and above? Do you still see yourself working for money at that age just to survive?
All my realizations this year about money is not enough to be written in one day. But what I can do is to habitually share what I learn in this blog hoping that at least in my own little way, I am able to touch lives of those who will be able to read my articles in a special and liberating way.
I hope to spread the good news to everyone that there is something we could do to improve the quality of our lives and the society as a whole. =D |
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| Times are getting hard.. |
[Apr. 21st, 2006|09:54 am] |
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Well, I am sure most of us would agree that the times are really getting hard, not unless that you are a son or daughter of a very prominent family. Even the middle class these days are even experiencing that belt tightening. In a country where almost 90% of the income generating population come from the employed sector, losing your job is one of the worst things that could happen to you especialy that it's sudden and immediate. I know it is easy to be sympathetic for these three friends of mine who have been informed just two weeks in advance that they'd be losing their jobs by the end of the month. Even though they don't react that violently, I could clearly feel it in my heart on how painful it could be for them. I wish I can be more involved in helping them. How I wish I could do something so at the least, they could be able to retain their jobs for a few more weeks, but who am I to our employers. Who are we to are employers. Most of the time, they see us as things that are dispensable, thus coming up with the word "corporate slaves". After getting what they need from you, they just drop you like a hot potato. Inasmuch as you cry and shout "Unfair!", they let you sign what they call contracts so that your rights are waived. That's the reality of life's bitterness. Nobody said it would be easy, right?
I just wish that they could be able to see this as a blessing in disguise. It may not be now, but I am sure they'll see it that way some day. I know they will move on not only because they don't have a choice to just keep moving, but because it is the best way to do. It is the healthiest thing to do.
I hope and pray that they will have the strength, the will and the determination to find the best job for them. I am sure that they will soon find the job best suited for them. I would like to think that they have learned a lot in their six-month experience here much as I am doing (even though this company really seems to be crap) |
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| Continuation of Avisala |
[Apr. 20th, 2006|08:24 am] |
Hi there. I am glad to know that aside from the purpose of outpouring my emotions here for my own benefit, at least there are some people like you guys (Camille, Aliza and Rebecca) who are there to await for the recent updates about me (o diba?)
Well, for Aliza this may not be too hard since we were able to engage in conversations lately so she might not have a hard time getting an update about the latest developments in my life, but I will try my best to make every statement understandable for anyone who would like to peek into some portions of my life that I would like to share.
Well, lately, I am learning a lot about managing change. It's ironic that the old saying that "There's nothing constant in this world but change" has been a cliche' for most people yet we most of the time have a hard time accepting one. Well, to cut the story short, our company is laying off people and even though I am one of the few people who were retained (not because they really like me here but because they have to as a consequence for trying to eliminate me here. I will have to discuss this further in a separate paragraph. =D), I feel sorry for the three colleagues I have worked with for almost six months who suddenly are at the verge of being dehired in our company. All the while we have all thought that they are about to be in a bed of roses as they secure a regular job tenure in this cute company that's not even making money for the past two years since it started. I guess this is what they get from going to the office eight hours a day almost doing nothing not because they are lazy but because the company does not have something to do for them. I guess everyone thought being in this kind of "comfort zone" would last forever especially now that these three agents who are about to be laid off are on their sixth month here. I guess we had an impression that when you work for six straight months in a company, your status in that company will become regular, meaning you hold an important position and you could not just be dehired without any valid reasons, just like in my case. I already hold a regular status here as I work towards my tenth month (though I was regularized by January of this year, my sixth month with the company)
The very sad thing that was done to them was they were given three months contractual for their first three months and then after the first contract expired, that was the time they were given probationary contracts. So technically, they are only halfway to the six-month regularization period. As a friend Roel have told me, that is why we are always asked to be careful in signing contracts because contracts are considered documents that waives your rights, which apparently is almost true to every contract I see.
Well, the funny part is, they could have included me in the list of the agents to be dehired if Miss J did not decide to transfer me back to the IT Deparment (from the Mandarin call center department) due to a recent useless and insensible political bickering in this chaotic and minute company of ours. Well, since she made a prior decision of instantantaneously shifting my career path from time to time (which is not really that bad for me since I am able to experience different fields in just one span of time) from call center to IT for almost three times, her decisions have suddenly made me indispensable because of there is one perfect time to get rid of me in this company, I guess this might be the right time. Although actually, the can actually do that any time, they would just have to spend more on severance pay, back pays plus of course additional expenses in the event that I decide to sue them for illegally terminating a regular employee.
So much so for all of these, I believe you might have lots of questions hovering in your minds right now. For the mean time what is important is that I was able to make this blog as an outlet for this frustrations I feel for my friends/officemates. I hope you could pray for them that they may see this thing as a blessing and that they focus on looking at the solution instead of the problem. |
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| Avisala! |
[Apr. 19th, 2006|09:17 am] |
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Well, Encantadia's now on it's last week after a year of showcasing fantasy and magic in the landscape of Philippine soap opera. I have been an avid fan of this show not only because of it's unique plot and presentation but primarily because it has been one of GMA's weapons along with Angel Locsin's Darna and the Jang-Geum's ( I forgot her screen name as an actress ) Jewel in the Palace which I felt had a very great impact in my life. (to be continued) |
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| Questions questions questions |
[Aug. 18th, 2005|09:06 am] |
Well, I guess asking questions is just a part of our lives. I believe an abundance of it each day may either drive you crazy (if the answers to the sets of questions you ask are not answerable by a simple yes or no) or it may improve our knowledge stock.
Anyway, I got two questions today in my mind which i just feel are worth asking and worth researching the answers.
1. Is the presence of office politics a reflection of poor company management?
2. Is it really harder to find sincere people when we get older? |
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[Aug. 10th, 2005|08:06 am] |
The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack of will.
--- Vince Lombardi
There is no knowledge that is not power.
--- Ralph Waldo Emerson |
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| The 90/10 Principle (just got it from my email. hope we could all apply it =)) |
[Jul. 28th, 2005|01:45 pm] |
Discover the 90/10 Principle. It will change your life.
What is the 90/10 Principle?
10% of life is made up of what happens to you.
90% of life is decided by how you react.
What does this mean?
We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us.
We cannot stop the car from breaking down.
The plane will be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A
driver may cut us off in traffic.
We have no control over this 10%.
The other 90% is different.
You determine the other 90%.
How? By your reaction.
You cannot control a red light, but you can control your reaction.
Don't let people fool you; YOU can control how you react.
Let's use an example.
You are eating breakfast with your family.
Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt. You
have no control over what just what happened.
What happens when the next will be determined by how you react. You
curse. You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over. She
breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and
criticize her for
placing the cup too close to the edge of the table.
A short verbal battle follows.
You storm upstairs and change your shirt.
Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy
crying to finish breakfast and get ready for school.
She misses the bus.
Your spouse must leave immediately for work.
You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school.
Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed
limit. After a 15-minute delay and throwing $60 traffic fine away, you
arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying
goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late, you find you
forgot
your briefcase.
Your day has started terribly.
As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse.
You look forward to coming home, When you arrive home, you find
a small wedge in your relationship with your spouse and daughter. Why?
Because of how you reacted in the morning.
Why did you have a bad day?
A) Did the coffee cause it?
B) Did your daughter cause it?
C) Did the policeman cause it?
D) Did you cause it?
The answer is D.
You had no control over what happened with the coffee.
How you reacted in those 5 seconds is what caused your bad day. Here is
what could have and should have happened.
Coffee splashes over you.
Your daughter is about to cry.
You gently say, "It's ok honey, you just need, to be more careful next
time." Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs.
After grabbing a new shirt and your briefcase, you come back down in
time
to look through the window and see your child getting on the bus. She
turns and waves. You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the
staff. Your boss comments on how good the day you are having.
Notice the difference?
Two different scenarios.
Both started the same.
Both ended different.
Why? Because of how you REACTED.
You really do not have any control over 10% of what happens. The other
90% was determined by your reaction. Here are some ways to apply the
90/10 principle. If someone says something negative about you, don't be
a sponge. Let the attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to
let the negative comment affect you!
React properly and it will not ruin your day.
wrong reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, getting
stressed out etc.
How do you react if someone cuts you off in traffic?
Do you lose your temper?
Pound on the steering wheel?
A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off!
Do you curse?
Does your blood pressure skyrocket?
Do you try and bump them? WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later at
work?
Why let the cars ruin your drive?
Remember the 90/10 principle, and do not worry about it.
You are told you lost your job.
Why lose sleep and get irritated?
It will work out.
Use your worrying energy and time into finding another job.
The plane is late; it is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why
take out your frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control
over what is going on. Use your time to study, get to know the other
passenger.
Why get stressed out?
It will just make things worse.
Now you know the 90-10 principle.
Apply it and you will be amazed at the results.
You will lose nothing if you try it.
The 90-10 principle is incredible.
Very few know and apply this principle.
The result?
Millions of people are suffering from undeserved stress, trials,
problems and heartache. There never seem to be a success in life.
Bad days follow bad days.
Terrible things seem to be constantly happening.
There is constant stress, lack of joy, and broken relationships. Worry
consumes time. Anger breaks friendships and life seems dreary and is not
enjoyed to the
fullest.
Friends are lost.
Life is a bore and often seems cruel.
Does this describe you? If so, do not be discouraged.
You can be different!
Understand and apply the 90/10 principle.
It will change your life.
Have a Great Day & and even Greater Tomorrow! |
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| A new wave of office politics |
[Jul. 19th, 2005|11:20 pm] |
Well, i'm not just sure if this is coincidental, but is this an effect of the current political crisis in the country?
I am speaking right now because I firmly believe that we are one family in
Wingcast, and as a member of a family, I believe each individual has his/her own
things to say for the greater good of this company.
I fervently thank all of you for giving me a warm welcome in Wingcast. The
warmness and gregariousness of the people has been a big motivation for me to
perform my tasks with the best of my abilities each day. Young as I am in Wingcast,
I could envision that given the combined, efficient use of our human resources
and infrastructures, our company will become one of the most dynamic IT
companies in the Philippines.
It is with this vision in mind that I would like to 'put my silence at risk'
because I would like to voice out from what I have observed as our Strengths,
Weaknesses, Opportunities and Threats (SWOT) of our organization.
Pardon me/us for being frank at this point, but above anything else, my focus
is for the benefit and the development of the company. I am not sure as to how
the management will react, but basically we just don't like to see another Mike
who will want to leave the company.
To be direct to the point so that our concerns will not be misunderstood, we
are referring to Sir Chris.
1) I believe that there should be a clear delegation and distinction of tasks
among each individual in the company. There should be an ego-less relationship
in the company. No one should act like a king and neither one should act like a
'slave' of one. We are all equally working for one goal in the company and that
is to make Wingcast a productive workplace, and a profitable company.
2) There should be an overhaul in the IT department of Wingcast. I believe that
the core members of the IT department should have the necessarily skills in
System Administration, has a sound and formidable background in Web Programming,
Database Management System, should know the difference between the 'front' and
'back' ends, and the composition of a dynamic e-commerce website. The last time
I discussed with Sir Chris about Laox, what he understood about the EC site
that we will develop for Laox is that we will actually build 5000 webpages since
there are 5000+ pages in Laox. A person who will truly understand Web
Programming will not talk like this.
3.) There should be proper and formal training of each individual as to the
products, goals, services provided and ideals of Wingcast. When I entered into the
company, there was no formal training and documentation of how the system of
the TEXX card works. There was no clear cut structure of training the new
individuals as to how the company moves.
4.) There should be credibility and consistency in every designation that is
assigned. Every task to be assigned should be clear. There should be no trial and
error. We have noticed that if one task is assigned today, tomorrow, it will be
different. It is very degrading to the employee if he/she spent all his/her
effort in a task, just to find out that it is wasted because it was not used for
the task.
5.) Before task should be presented, the leader of the project should make sure
that there is proper background given and presented to all the team members. It
is very hard to absorb the specs of the task when you are not familiar with it
especially if there is very little description given. It is hard to make a
guess because when we commit errors, it is the whole team that will suffer. We
should not always assume that something is easy to understand because each of us
graduated from different fields. For example, I may be familiar about IT and
others are not, but others are more adept in call center operations and I am not.
6.) We should focus on solutions not on mistakes and fault-finding. We are all
humans and no one is perfect.
I hope we could all sit down on this matter on Thursday July 21. I think Malou
has scheduled a group panel discussion with
the both you.
Good luck to all of us and more power to Wingcast!
Sincerely yours,
The Wingcast Staff |
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| Life Goes On |
[Jul. 13th, 2005|08:07 am] |
So far, everything is going very well for me at Wingcast. Projects are starting to be planned and scheduled, at the same time, am starting to get to know the people very well. I am happy that they enjoy the jokes that I crack.
Although there are some events from the past that continue to haunt me, I am glad that at the least, there are plans set up on how Jules and George could resolve their financial issues with me. I just hope and pray that they will be able to fix this as soon as possible. I believe that it will be easier for me to move forward with my life if they will be able to do so.
I know in Jules' part, it will take quite some time after I agreed last February to purchase a cellphone that he will pay me monthly for twelve months through my credit card. So far it's just the fourth bill. I am just anticipating that the worst scenario is, I might have to deal these things with him 'til February of next year. =( But I guess kahit papano may pinagsamahan naman kami. I just hope he takes his word that he will pay me weekly since he has a weekly-paying job already. I also hope and pray that they could fix their lives already. I'd be the first one happy to see them okay, honestly speaking.
Well, Jijo told me before that he was able to move on from his painful experience with Jhoanna after six long months. On my part, I can say that I have moved on from being "madly in love". I guess as the cliche goes, it is really easier to move on when you keep yourself busy :D |
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| Is Gloria's final days coming? |
[Jul. 4th, 2005|11:10 pm] |
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I was a bit struck by the inside information that I received this morning that there is a very big possibility that there will be a new government in replacement to Gloria's administration. It was how the stockmarket and the peso dealing system also reacted this morning, with a six month all time low. Personally, I really think that the President made a wrong move in allowing the temporary restraining of the E-Vat law, which was suspected to lessen the disgust of the masses against her, in a time where she is entangled with controversies from all sides.
Well, I showed Jules how disappointed I was for not being able to signal me to go out earlier. Again, I still am I happy I followed my own decision a few days ago to unload 5000 of MWC to pay off my balances with IGC. At least if there is temporary dilution in my portfolio, it's all paid up, though it still irritates me especially when I come to think that these are hard earned money. But I still believe in the power of positive thinking. I know some day, it's all worth the waiting. I am doing this now not because of Jules promises cause I dont want any false hopes again. But I want to tell myself that the moment everything goes back to normal, I am really going to start shifting my portfolio back to safe instruments and pay off my investors so I could get back to doing what I really want to do. I just hope and pray that everything will go back to normal. I hope the ghost in the past would let me move on already ... Please Lord =)
So far, it's my first day to go home with my teammate and neighbor Mike. It was not a very long ride after all but I have to admit that the MRT is really Calgary itself. How I wish the trains were as wide as those in the LRT 2 line. hehe.
Anyway, am about to sleep. Hope no unusual and unfortunate things will happen to me tomorrow as what happened to me today. =) |
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| This is the Day |
[Jul. 3rd, 2005|04:00 pm] |
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Well, finally the day which I don't know if I'd be excited or be afraid of coming has finally arrived. Apparently, all that I could do now is to welcome it with open arms and with a positive outlook ahead.
So far there was nothing much to do at work yet. I could say that I am still adopting to a new management style and exposing myself on new projects that are different from my previous ones in Eversun.
Until now, I just couldn't believe that my doubts that Noel, not filing our contributions properly, were validated and proven. Imagine, you were being deducted for 10 months and if i did not resign, we could have not realized that Allen's, Aliza's and my contributions were not filed properly. I am happy that God allowed me to discover these things even if it was my last day already. Had I not been given a last day to fix all these issues face to face, it would have been harder for me to fix these issue with Noel and Danny, since technically, I am not an employee of Eversun anymore.
I just hope and pray that the management of Eversun could fix these issues as soon as possible. I know it is just a small amount involved for some, the fact that these small amounts of money were not coursed through the proper places where it should be is such a big insult and offense to working people. What if we stayed for another two to three years with the company? Then the 16,000 could have become 32,000 or 48,000 and the graver will the administration's offense be not just with the law but in the eyes of God.
I still believe that businesses succeed because of the good support that they receive from their employees. If the management will tolerate such actions, I am more than sure that such company will suffer more consequences than being bankrupt!
Anyway, to the readers of my blog, please forgive me if I get a bit outraged when it comes to these kinds of topics because aside from the fact that it is still ongoing, I am tired of dealing with people who's prime intentions are to fool you and take advantage of you. But I realized, this is real life and instead of trying to avoid and cry over spilled milk, I guess I have to learn how to be more defensive and shock-proof now in 'driving' with my life.
I miss my officemates/friends in Eversun. Even if my last day was quite a 'queer and outrageous' one, I still consider it as one of the memorable days. I will miss the regular lunch 'pansitans' that we engage in everyday cause I think it will be different now in my new work. Iba pa rin siguro talaga ang relationship with your first officemates. What I also know is that the older we get, the less and less sincere people we meet. Well, I guess it's just a normal consequences of our being afraid to get fooled that's why we do not open ourselves that easily anymore.
To my barkada sa Eversun, I miss you guys. Sana di niyo ako makalimutan kahit na may bago nang pumalit sa akin diyan na mas makulit hehe. Ate Marj, sana wala ka nang ibang maimpluwensiyahan sa lengwahe natin. Tama na na tayo ang nakakaalam ng mahiwagang lengwahe na yan. Actually medyo sinisimulan ko na nga ipasok yang lengwahe na yan sa office kaso feeling ko mamimisinterpret ako kasi meron talaga akong mga kaofficemates na may Pifty-Pifty at Bisual Vasic na syndrome!!! hahaha. Mamaya isipin niya na minamock ko siya diba? hahaha. E mamaya pag nagBATTER BATTER ako or nag sabi ako ng MANTH e maloka sila sa akin.
Kay Tere at Aliza, I hope these days umuwi na kayo ng sabay lalo nang nagdadalantao na si Mama Tere. Wag na puro gimik ng gimik. Mas mahal ang pamasahe sa FX kaysa sa LRT diba? Hay so far di ko pa nga natatry na magcommute pauwi from Ortigas, pero so far okay naman yung feeling na maglakad sa gabi from our building to Megamall cause presko naman na sa gabi tsaka may tatlo akong kasabay sa paglalakad, and that includes my neighbor na rin.
Ayun for the first time again for quite some time, I just stayed home during the weekend. Eto Im just watching the Taiwanese teleseries that I bought from Hong Kong. Nuod nuon ng mga channel 2 shows. Si Pops pala host na uli ng ASAP hehe. Tsk tsk. May trabaho na uli hehehe.
Anyway, hope to go out with you guys soon. Miss you. Hope maging okay ang takbo ng mga career natin. Remember that we are still lucky than a lot of people who have the opportunity to get a good and stable job. We should put this opportunity to good use. |
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| Two more days |
[Jun. 29th, 2005|10:58 am] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | If the Feeling is Gone (Kyla) | ] |
Today's the birthday of two dominant people in my life -- Aliza and Jules. It's just a different feeling being able to give something special to them a few days before I'd be leaving. I remember before how Jules and I planned to build our own company together with George. Well, I guess for now, it's not yet going to happen -- not in the near future. I wish he would be able to fix his life even if it won't be the way it was before. Life is indeed a matter of perspective and is composed of a different set of values and thinking. I could say that I have a different way of thinking now compared to the one I had a few months ago. I guess that is what you call first hand experience and the lesson you learn from such is unimaginably worthwhile especially when you are already at the point that you are backtracking.
I was so idealistic before. I wanted to challenge the fact that I could live on my own and that I do not need the support of my family. Well, right now, what I really think is that there is really nothing wrong with wanting to learn how to stand on your own feet, but I guess what was wrong was my ambitions went over board. I realized that long before since I was still in college, I have always welcomed the fact that if I earn more money, I could save enough to leave the house as soon as possible.
But as what I preached myself earlier, there are some things that just can't be forced. I just realized that my values are trained to be close with the family and i think they are important to me than anything else. I also realized that they will always be the people who will be the people who will wish what is best for me, even if I would despise them in return...
Basically, the reason why my last days in Eversun is significant, is because I feel that it is not only the routine or the usual conversations with friends that I will be leaving behind, but also the unproductive attitudes and the old mentalities... |
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| Living and leaving |
[Jun. 28th, 2005|09:56 am] |
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| | accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Kung Ako Nalang Sana (Bituin Escalante) | ] |
It is a smooth sailing morning for me. I was back to being able to organize my tasks for today using a to-do list which I missed using for quite some time now. I think it really pays to be 'semi-organized' rather than not being organized at all. Well, semi-organized because sometimes when you become too organized, everything becomes too rigid. When something unexpected occurs that is not in accordance to your plans, you get easily frustrated.
I just hope by the time I'll leave Makati, every transaction that will be affected by my change in office location will be addressed properly. Just a while ago, I was able to talk to Miss Malou of Wingcast. I was going to ask if a 1 x 1 picture with a non-white background was allowed, but unfortunately, it's not, so I had to really go to Kameraworld for an updated ID photo. Well, I was just flattered that they were happy and excited to see me start already. =)
I guess today will still be a continuation of my farewell moments here in Makati. Inasmuch as it's just an ordinary day for most, I try to cherish each minute that passes by because I am not sure if such moments would come my way again ever. Well, Miguel is indeed right, I think by hook or by crook, I was able to learn a lot during the past year. I can consider it to be one of the wildest years I have gone through.
Well, the list of reasons why I should always feel lucky still continues to extend, but I guess one of the ultimate reasons I have discovered these past few days is that I am lucky to have God behind my back in all of the trials that I have faced. I owe Him what I am and what I have today. Something much worse could have happened to me in the times when temptation won over me, but still He always gives me a chance to make up and move on and even to be stronger. What I just really hope and pray, is that I will never do something grave that will make my parents particularly Mama very disappointed and disillusioned. She has gone through a lot and I want to make good in my life cause I want to show her that her efforts to bring me up are never wasted. =) |
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| Reunion with a Good Old Friend |
[Jun. 26th, 2005|10:31 pm] |
I was so glad to see my good, old friend Miguel again. It's like almost a year and a half since we saw each other again. We went to watch the movie Hotel Rwanda at the Gateway Mall, a thing we haven't done for years since we became good friends way back first year college. =) I'm glad he is still doing great and I am happy that a big part of him is still the same old Miguel that I know -- simple, trustworthy and practical. I have to admit that I learned a lot from this guy, that is why, in my motion to push myself back to where I was before, he is one of the person I thought to approach. I wish him well, and I hope this would not be our last getaway. =)
Miguel just told me a while ago that based on our storytelling portion a while ago, it seems that I have really experienced a lot this year, and assured me that it's all normal. I guess it's just really common to anyone to experience a stage in our lives where we go through the joys and pains of falling in love. It's all a matter of how we check and balance and make sure that we are not falling apart because of the madness that it brings.
Well, I went swimming tonight as usual at the Celebrity Club. I like the hot water there, especially these days when the weather starts to get cooler. I have realized that their hot shower plus the combination of pool water exfoliates my skin, just in time for the wedding of my cousin, Margaret tomorrow. =) I hope I could look good tomorrow and attract some girls out there hahaha. I'll gonna get a picture of myself tomorrow and update my picture in friendster and in this blog harharhar.
Anyway, I am just trying to make the most out of these few days before I finally start my work at Wingcast. I hope and pray that I could do my job well there and learn a lot of new things from the company. I will really miss the men and women of Eversun, and yes even those who power-trip are included =) In my opinion, I just think they have to start doing something before the company starts losing precious talents just because the boss solely listens to someone he thinks is 'best' for the company. Well, I know it is not anymore of my concern since I have already resigned, although technically, I still feel have the right to say these things primarily because I own this space and my resignation will be effective by June 30.
I am not sure if the company has plans to make a major overhaul of the team members 'cause if that's the case, I really think they are doing a great job. I personally feel that Allen and I will definitely not be the last employees to file their resignation this year. Until now, I still can't believe how everything changed since I entered this company. I guess was just too idealistic and too expecting. =(
I do not like to think that I got nothing from this company. One year is still one year of experiences both good and bad. I have to be honest that I also had an easier time getting pirated by companies because of my 'almost' one year experience in Eversun. Even if it was almost a year of Traveling with Kidz, at least I could say that I have been adept to different variations and contributions of OsCommerce.
Well, one of my primary reasons for leaving Eversun is because I felt that I was treated more like a technician already rather than a partner, as what transpired before. Many promises were dispensed (profit sharing, other company perks,etc.) but almost none were fulfilled, and imagine, working for a year and you could not even enter the building premises as an employee because you do not have a company id? When you make a follow-up of the status of your id, they'll tell you that the id manufacturer does not produce ids less than 10. Damn! You try to ask for a duplicate of your contract and they'll tell you that it's still processing. Darn! Now that I am leaving the company, there is still no contract? Shocks!
Anyway, I don't want to spread bitterness and to abuse the privilege of writing what I want to say just because this is my personal blog but I really have to admit that a big reason why I didn't leave so soon from this company is because of the great people that I have met and that I will always cherish. =) I just hope they will turn my documents and my back pay over as efficiently and as promplty as possible, I will be very cooperative. =)
I have to go to bed in a while. I have to look fresh in my cousin's wedding tomorrow hehehe =) Take care everyone, and have a nice weekend ahead. Feel free to comment on my remarks =) |
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| I hope I could be able to reach this point someday =) |
[Jun. 24th, 2005|03:55 pm] |
What this power is I cannot say; all I know is that it exists and it becomes available only when a man is in that state of mind in which he knows exactly what he wants and is fully determined not to quit until he finds it.
--- Alexander Graham Bell |
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| To Let Go |
[Jun. 24th, 2005|03:51 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Always Be My Baby (Mariah Carey) | ] |
This was a message my good friend, Aliza forwarded me during the times when I had a hard time moving on from someone =)
To Let Go
-Author unknown
To let go doesn't mean to stop caring.
It means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go isn't to cut myself off.
It's the realization that I can't control another.
Rather than to enable...it is to allow learning from natural consequences.
Letting go is to admit powerlessness.
Meaning the outcome is not in my hands.
It is not to try to change or blame another; but knowing that I can only
change myself.
Instead of caring for, it is to care about.
It is to be supportive instead of to fix.
To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.
To allow others to effect their own outcomes, instead of being in the
middle arranging all the outcomes.
It is not to be protective but to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny but to accept.
Not to nag, scold or argue, but rather to search out my own shortcomings
and to correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my own desires but to take
Each day as it comes and to cherish each moment.
Not to criticize and to regulate anyone, but to try to become the dream
I can be.
Instead of regret for the past...
It is to grow and live for the future,
To fear less and to love more. |
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| Reminiscentia |
[Jun. 24th, 2005|11:58 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Fallen by Janno Gibbs, Separate Lives by Phil Collins | ] |
Do I really need to think of a title every time I attempt to write something in here? Hahaha. Well, I am not sure if there is indeed such word. Anyway, just pardon me if I keep using words related to nostalgia and memories for the past few days and for the coming ones cause for the past few months that I really liked to jot down all the things that I felt inside, I just feel that this is the right moment to unleash them.
What I noticed the past few days is that my phone is not that easily low in battery already. I guess it just implies that I am having less interaction with my co-Sun subscribers. hehe. I wonder how many pages will my bill be during this period. My cut off was June 21 and actually I already have an idea that it my bill for this month will cost around 400+ only. Affordable right? :D. I always get so happy and contented every time I received a very thick bill outlining all the calls and texts I made with a P0.00 there cause most were sun to sun calls =) I usually save 10K - 15K a month because of these service of Digitel. I just wonder if there will be a decrease for the succeeding months.
Well, I still get to keep in touch with some friends. Actually last night, had a text conversation with Anna, my soon-to-be officemate in Wingcast. They had a night out yesterday at Metrowalk. They actually wanted to invite me but thought that I was already on my way home (which was quite true)
Actually, I almost got stranded last night 'cause after I took off the tricycle, the rain poured very hard that I had to stand by a sari-sari store for quite a while while waiting for the rain to subside.
I was the first one to go home and made sure that the gate was tightly locked. I wouldn't imagine what my family would do to me if I will leave the gate open for another one hour and a half!! :O
My family was very happy to see me tonight =) I would like to think that it was all because of the right choices that I made. Well, I just don't know, but right now, I just feel that there is peace at home since I started doing the things that are favorable to them...
Well, I am starting to try some things I think I haven't done before. I guess this is where the saying 'If you can't beat them, join them' comes in. For the past few months, I was so focused on trying to stand on my own, be independent and to do things my way. I observed that most of the time, I fail. Well, one reason could be my parents really know me very well and another reason, that I don't see very often, is I guess the mere fact that it's not yet the right time =( I just have to accept the fact that I will never stand to see my family get hurt because I did what I wanted to do for myself. I think the right definition of freedom is doing something that you want without stepping others' foot, right? Well, I guess the things that transpired just explains the fact that it was not pure freedom that I was looking for. It was more on wildness. =)
It was just quite saddening 'cause I was so into satisfying my wildness and my madness in love, I forgot to appreciate the blessings that I have received. I almost forgot how lucky I am:
1)to be able to work not because I have to raise a family but to experience working in a multinational company.
2)to have a good family backer to catch me in events when I make big mistakes.
3)to be able to have the luxury of watching movies, going to malls, going abroad, eating three times a day, having a solid family foundation, having a good future to look upon..
4)to have good and sincere friends who I could trust and rely.
5)to be in a prestigious school and have an edge among others when it comes to job application and career growth
6)to be able to receive a competitive salary renumeration on my very first formal job.
7)many more blessings that I am not conscious of as of the moment.
Well, as Ate Marj has mentioned over lunch, life is all about a matter of perspective. :D Everything is relative =) I guess I have to just continue telling myself how lucky I am everytime a misfortune hits me. How I wish I could sustain this kind of outlook in life every time I face a challenge. =) |
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| House Quote Comments |
[Jun. 24th, 2005|11:46 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | relaxed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | I'll Never Go (Erik Santos) | ] |
The difference between genius and stupidity is that genius has its limits.
--- Anon
Well, this is very true, maybe this is related to the Law of Gravitation hahaha
Mother love is the fuel that enables a normal human being to do the impossible.
--- Anon
So far,this works for me. I'm not sure if this works for others, especially those who live independently.
You have to decide whether you are going to ride the waves or make them.
--- Anon
Well, I guess this quote is a variation of which road you'll decide to take -- the road frequently travelled, or the less travelled one? |
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